Dear me,

It seems that no matter how much you try someone seems fit to take what you want away from you. You try your hardest and no matter what you do it's taken away. You want to cry. You want to scream. You want to blame someone because that's what seems the best thing to do. The pain is real and feels like it won't ever go away. How could you be doing everything right and have everything wrong happen.

All you see are the pictures. The giant black hole on a TV screen that gave an answer that you never wanted to come. The cup you had, that was once half full, has been drained out the bottom and is now empty.

You tell everyone that you're fine. You don't want anyone else to worry or to be bothered with what you are going through but it's becoming harder and harder to remain balanced when around other people. A quiet noise with a slight sadness is uttered through your voice. People know something has happened.

How could this happen again?

Sincerely yours,

Me.