Friday, August 16, 2013

Carry on

I promised that I'd do better with writing on here.  I promised and that never happened.  Well, a lot has happened and let me tell you, when the crap hits the fan you just want to be out of the way so that you don't get hit. 

First, it's sad when the only person that updates their blog is the random cooking blog that you follow.  Ha, oh well at least I'm learning how to make delicious recipes. 

I've officially moved down to Ogden, UT.  I'm officially signed up for all of my classes at Weber State University and I start, officially, on August 26th.  You'd think that I'd be nervous, you know going to a brand new school and all.  Well, this is the fourth school that I've gone too.  All I need to know is where my two on campus classes are and how much my books are going to cost.  It's nice that both of my classes are in the same building. 

When I left the Ammon Walmart I didn't know I was going to miss so many people.  I'd begin to name people but I'm sure that I'd leave someone out and they'd become offended.  We don't want that happening, seeing how I will be making a visit every now and then.  I do though, miss you guys.  I transferred to another store down here in Utah, and I'm already looking for other work.  It just isn't the same.  I have an interview tomorrow so fingers cross that it goes well. 

The day after Melissa and I moved down here though, we realized why we kept feeling like we needed to move back home.  You see, we never wanted to move back here.  I didn't want to attend Weber State.  We wanted to have an adventure.  We wanted to raise our family somewhere that they could experience a new culture and environment.  But, we kept feeling this nagging feeling that we needed to move back.  The day after we moved down my parents announced that they were getting a divorced.  Now, I can't say that I was surprised I realized that they were having problems, but actually hearing it blew me away.  After 36 years of marriage they were calling it quits.  I cried, probably more than I have in a long time.  I became really upset.  I made idol threats and did some silly things.  All of which only Melissa heard and saw, thank Alla!  I then started to look at the past.  Everyone was picking sides and dredging up the past and speaking about it openly, so I guess it was just inevitable that I did it.  The only thing though, I never told anyone.  I never used it against anyone nor did I try to make anyone feel bad about things.  It was then that I was able to start moving on.  I was able to realize that this divorce was happening whether I wanted it to or not and I could either start helping or sit there and complain.  Well, I started helping.  Both of my parents needed something, and I was going to do everything in my power to help them.  Today, I helped my mom move into an apartment.  Melissa, her brother, and I moved a lot of stuff today.  I then went over and helped my dad move some things around his house and made sure he would have some things that he needed.  I'm sore, but I feel accomplished.  In the words of Rodney copperbottom "see a need, fill a need".  My parents have done so much for me, it's time for me to help them out.

Melissa and I decided that we needed to live a healthier life...Go us!  A few things we decided to do were to eliminate red meat and dairy from our diet, eat less sugar, and eat more vegetables.  I've noticed some changes  I'm starting to lose weight, I'm feeling fuller and eating less, I don't feel as sick as I used to, and I'm starting to think clearer.  On top of not eating all of the starchy/bready things of life, my body is loving life and starting to show me.  I've also decided to go off my medication.  This was a hard decision for me.  I've been off of them for three days now and I'm starting to feel the strain.  There were a lot of reasons I decided to stop taking them.  A few of them are A) I've been taking them for 7 years and it's about time I see if I can survive without them.  B) I don't have the money to pay for them :( and C) I like being a guinea pig on myself.  If you don't know why I was taking them, maybe I'll tell you sometime.  I plan to update how I'm feeling about it all on here.

Now, when I left walmart I only had one song pop into my head.  When I heard about my parents divorce this song eventually popped into my head.  It has sort of been my theme song as of late.  I will leave you with the music video.



Veronica said...

Jeremy, I have tried to call you and I must have put the wrong # in my phone. Could you email me your #? My email is Thank you! I love you!

Cindy Caudle said...

Great song. I can see why this is your new theme song. We all will carry on and things will get better. Just have to weather the storm and dance in the rain. Love ya